I feel great guilt sometimes over not writing here enough.
I read so many BDSM, D/s or M/s related blogs that are a daily journey thru the trials and tribulations, joys and wonder, play and punishment of other’s relationships. I get to feeling like I should… say more.
And then I realize I don’t have to.
That’s not what this place is for. It never has been.
And, besides, after so many years together most of our daily junk is just daily junk. Routine, ordinary life with our own particular D/s twist. It’s nothing anyone wants to read about. It’s nothing “new” or “fresh” or even particularly kinky.
It just is.
Life.
If I were to attempt to write something meaningful and deep every day I’d fail. My urge to write comes in spurts and stutters, my epiphanies rare jewels. (To me, anyhow)
My daily D/s is no longer worth exploring. I much prefer to live it, to enjoy it, to revel in it and relish it. I don’t need to pick it apart or share the minutiae with the masses.
And, lately, I’ve been content. I’ve been inactive on web forums or in the local community - no one has been pissing me off or chafing my ass. I have nothing to rile me up, nothing big to talk about.
And that’s ok.
Disappointing to some of you, perhaps.
But, damn, I’m happy.
Eventually the urge to write, to purge my brain of some seemingly momentous thought will strike. And I’ll write.
Until then…
May each and every one of you have a Blessed Yule, a very, Merry Christmas and a safe and beautiful New Year.
Blessed Be friend…. Thank you, as it’s nice to see you are still with us!
December 12th, 2007 at 4:51 pmUuuuhhh HelloOOOoooo…. I’m posting about my yeast infections for Mike’s sake!
Yeah, I gettit.
December 12th, 2007 at 9:24 pmSeems to me that we’re just going to have to go out and find material to rant about. Its like.. I want to rant, because, damn, it feels good you know? But I don’t have anything to rant ABOUT. *sigh* Woe is me. Nothing to bitch about? That cannot be!
December 12th, 2007 at 10:05 pmYanno, I check here probably daily, when I do my usual round of blog reading, because I genuinely like reading you. I tend to find myself nodding my head when reading your rants (LOL!), and a lot of the time you make me think and reflect on various things. Right now that thinking & reflecting is a good thing, and I’m starting to think about writing about more indepth stuff in the near future.
I’ve never been a fan of writing for the sake of writing.. to me there has to be some kind of purpose. Elsewise people run the risk of being boring as hell, like me, and rambling about their daily crap. There’s actually a purpose for my doing so.
So write when it moves you, I’ll be here reading when you do.
xo
December 12th, 2007 at 11:20 pmi found your blog about a month or two ago i guess, and i enjoy the things you write about very much. i dont read anyones blogs for the kink/ scene updates- i read because im finding there are women out there like me… and believe me when i say, i am just finding out who i am finally. some of us like things a little different, but we all have similarities…we want tp please, we want to surrender and obey…i will read you even if you just write a short note letting us know how you are.. Merry Christmas to you and yours.. hugs, Hisflower
December 13th, 2007 at 12:52 amY’all are awesome, yanno that?
Sinn… your yeast infection rant had me rolling on the floor. Your blog, in general, makes me laugh, nod my head and thank the good lord there’s someone else out there like me.
Kaya… you too. Complete ditto. You realize I wander around TSR just loooookkinnnnng for something to spur on a rant? *sigh* Not much decent fodder lately.
Lizzy and flower… thank you. Knowing I have people reading me who don’t expect a daily post and actually will come back to see what’s moved me when I do post is invaluable.
And, on that note, I actually do feel a babble coming on…
Off to write!
December 14th, 2007 at 10:20 amxoxo
i always enjoy what you have to share with us out here in bloggerville, but i also respect that blogging is very personal. That may seem like a dichotomy as we always know our words are out there for all to read, judge and comment…but it truly is, for me at least, a chance to get into words what’s rolling around inside my mind.
i am never disappointed with your choice…frequently amused…but always given something to think about and usually learn.
Thank you for sharing your journey!
s/nik
December 16th, 2007 at 9:25 amYour two words, “I’m happy,” made me smile. :>) I’m always afraid of saying those two words. In fact, it gives me the jitters. For as soon as they leave my lips, something will dash the happiness I felt for a moment.
But, when I read blogs like yours, I realize it doesn’t matter if one feels happiness for a minute, an hour, or the rest of your life. The important thing is that you ‘feel’ it.
I’m taking note of a page from your life. Thanks. It’s an unexpected Christmas present. ;>)
Muah little bit.
Nikita
December 28th, 2007 at 6:55 pm